I love being at MSU.
I love being away from my family.
I love the fact that I think I'm losing weight. Actually, I know I am. All this walking to and from class is killer, but it's actually helping! But, I hate the fact that I have shin splints b/c of all of it. And they hurt. A lot! But it's worth it.
I love Carrie Underwood's voice. Lol had to add that.
...and I love Amy cuz she reads all my blogs.
bah dah bah bah bah.... IM LOVIN IT!
Thursday, January 25
Sunday, January 21
:(
It's official... Ashlie (my "best" friend) is not going to go to MSU next year. :(
It makes me sad. There's so way, no how, no nothing! She's not even going to think about it. I guess her dad is going over to Kuwait in September and she "doesn't want to leave her mom all alone." Which, yeah... i understand you want to be there for your mom, but she's an adult!
And her other excuses are "I already have a nice job, and I wouldn't have to worry about any other bills, only my car!" *sigh* Lol. I really want to just cry? I may seem cheesy the reason why. But UGH!
Ok.. I'll just lay it down how it is! Being a military kid... SUCKS! You have to change your friends every 2 years, and I've never really been good at keeping in touch with old friends. I've put in so much effort, they just don't seem to put the effort back, so in the end... I give up! That's why at the beginning i said "best" friend. Cuz well, I've never really had one!
Ashlie coming to MSU would have allowed me to maybe finally build that one friendship that I've always wanted. Seriously. That's what I've always wanted, a good friend. I don't really know how to describe the whole situation. It's in my head, and I know what it is, i just can't describe it? Ashlie coming to MSU would have allowed us to hang out EVERYday and become closer? But it's not going to happen.
I told her "that makes me really sad, but I guess I just have to get over it." And she came back with "whenever I don't work, I can always come see you!" Yeah right. I bet she never comes to see me. And if she does, she'll bring her boyfriend along, and all they do is play kissy face and hold each other and it makes me feel awkward when trying to talk to her.
I've never had a friend for more than 2 years. Well! Amy and I have "known" each other for almost 3 years! Lol. But ugh, you live so damn far away! Gosh!
*sigh*
It makes me sad. There's so way, no how, no nothing! She's not even going to think about it. I guess her dad is going over to Kuwait in September and she "doesn't want to leave her mom all alone." Which, yeah... i understand you want to be there for your mom, but she's an adult!
And her other excuses are "I already have a nice job, and I wouldn't have to worry about any other bills, only my car!" *sigh* Lol. I really want to just cry? I may seem cheesy the reason why. But UGH!
Ok.. I'll just lay it down how it is! Being a military kid... SUCKS! You have to change your friends every 2 years, and I've never really been good at keeping in touch with old friends. I've put in so much effort, they just don't seem to put the effort back, so in the end... I give up! That's why at the beginning i said "best" friend. Cuz well, I've never really had one!
Ashlie coming to MSU would have allowed me to maybe finally build that one friendship that I've always wanted. Seriously. That's what I've always wanted, a good friend. I don't really know how to describe the whole situation. It's in my head, and I know what it is, i just can't describe it? Ashlie coming to MSU would have allowed us to hang out EVERYday and become closer? But it's not going to happen.
I told her "that makes me really sad, but I guess I just have to get over it." And she came back with "whenever I don't work, I can always come see you!" Yeah right. I bet she never comes to see me. And if she does, she'll bring her boyfriend along, and all they do is play kissy face and hold each other and it makes me feel awkward when trying to talk to her.
I've never had a friend for more than 2 years. Well! Amy and I have "known" each other for almost 3 years! Lol. But ugh, you live so damn far away! Gosh!
*sigh*
Friday, January 19
Ready Freddy
I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOO ready to go back to MSU.
I might be a nerd, but I actually enjoy doing school stuff! LOL! I dunno, it keeps me busy! Unless it's history stuff, that's boring beyond belief! For me at least.
Considering if I make it into pharmacy school, I still have 6 and 1/2 years of schooling to go... that's a good thing i enjoy it!
Jeez. I have been home for like 35 days! That's 34 too many ;)
There's another snow storm that's supposed to come through this weekend! Classes better not get cancelled next week, I'll be angry!
Random question: How are marshmellows made? I'm eating some right now, and I'm just curious! :]
I might be a nerd, but I actually enjoy doing school stuff! LOL! I dunno, it keeps me busy! Unless it's history stuff, that's boring beyond belief! For me at least.
Considering if I make it into pharmacy school, I still have 6 and 1/2 years of schooling to go... that's a good thing i enjoy it!
Jeez. I have been home for like 35 days! That's 34 too many ;)
There's another snow storm that's supposed to come through this weekend! Classes better not get cancelled next week, I'll be angry!
Random question: How are marshmellows made? I'm eating some right now, and I'm just curious! :]
Sunday, January 14
Let's do some math
(Quietdrive)+
(Boys Like Girls)
+
(Cobra Starship)
+
(Cartel)
=
One Amazing Concert Aleecia Gets To Go To! :)
Yes, so I get to go to concert #5 on March 4th. With all those bands I just said, lol!
I'm very very very very excited! Since I like all 4 WOO! First time I've ever known all the bands I went to the concert for! Now, I've got to memorize ALL their songs. Woot! I just dunno if that girl in the cobra starship picture is actually in the band or not... i know it the "snakes on a plane" song she sings back up..but thats about it! Oh well, i dun curr! Hehe
50 days :)
Saturday, January 13
And Amy said I ain't gangta
Look at that iced out grill I got, yo! We are under the biggest 'ice storm' warning that Missouri has had in like 5 years! Isn't that just great? I have to drive back on Monday, this crap better melt! That picture was taken at like 3 hours ago! There's a lot more icicles now! :o
Ice, ice, go away, come again another day!
Friday, January 12
New kicks?
Let's see.. my last blog was way to weird to just leave there alone? Too emo for Aleecia! ;)
I went shopping today... in Springfield! Of course, I go to college there... but my mom was going and I wanted to get some stuff. I also brought a load of stuff to my room, that way there's less to bring when I go back on Monday (right now, the plan is to leave Monday at least....)
I got new shoes. (clicky) Woot! Well, I ordered them... I don't have them yet. They didn't have them in size... humongous at journeys, so the lady ordered them for me. Lol, I have big feet :D The lady that helped me today greeted me by saying "Why, hello there darling! Looking to get yourself some new kicks today? You've come to the right place!" Weirdo! Lol
I also got a new shirt from hot topic. It wasn't the one I wanted, but I got one! The only shirt I want in life right now is a my chemical romance black parade shirt. That's all I want! Not too hard to ask for... but the last 4 hot topics I've been too don't have my size... they've got small or like 3XL. And well, neither of those fit me! Lol. But the plain white t's shirt that I got works! Lol. They are an awesome band too. But! It's the same shirt (just it's grey, and my sisters is yellow) that my sister got from the last concert we went too... so haha her shirt isn't all that authentic. Now the design I got from the concert is... for now!
I'm crazy tired! I only got 4 hours of sleep last night... and ugh! I haven't been sleeping well lately!
That's all I've got for now.
I went shopping today... in Springfield! Of course, I go to college there... but my mom was going and I wanted to get some stuff. I also brought a load of stuff to my room, that way there's less to bring when I go back on Monday (right now, the plan is to leave Monday at least....)
I got new shoes. (clicky) Woot! Well, I ordered them... I don't have them yet. They didn't have them in size... humongous at journeys, so the lady ordered them for me. Lol, I have big feet :D The lady that helped me today greeted me by saying "Why, hello there darling! Looking to get yourself some new kicks today? You've come to the right place!" Weirdo! Lol
I also got a new shirt from hot topic. It wasn't the one I wanted, but I got one! The only shirt I want in life right now is a my chemical romance black parade shirt. That's all I want! Not too hard to ask for... but the last 4 hot topics I've been too don't have my size... they've got small or like 3XL. And well, neither of those fit me! Lol. But the plain white t's shirt that I got works! Lol. They are an awesome band too. But! It's the same shirt (just it's grey, and my sisters is yellow) that my sister got from the last concert we went too... so haha her shirt isn't all that authentic. Now the design I got from the concert is... for now!
I'm crazy tired! I only got 4 hours of sleep last night... and ugh! I haven't been sleeping well lately!
That's all I've got for now.
Wednesday, January 10
Impressed?. . . I think not!
Why do I constantly try to impress my parents?That has been on my mind a lot this past.. well month! Ever since middle school, I have always wanted to impress my parents. But now that I think about it, I don't think I've ever been successful.
It's always "you could have done better!” , "you did that wrong!" , "you are such a horrible kid"
Example #1... my grades! I've always gotten A's and B's through school. But not once did my parents tell me good job. I only got 3 B's in high school... one of which I actually earned in 8th grade! Algebra, Geometry, and Advanced Composition (college class). In my family I think a B is a sin and is the end of the world. Like in pre-calculus in college last semester I got a B. The rest of my grades were A's! First thing my mom said to me? "A B?????? Aleecia, you should have done better!" Oh, I'm sorry that I got a B the grade that is still considered above average. "Good Job, Aleecia!" That's all I wanted.
Example #2... cleaning? My parents always complain the house is a mess and we leave our stuff lying around. So, last year I started randomly cleaning up the kitchen, the living room, the bathrooms, the basement, and my room... and made them look REALLY nice. Did anyone ever say anything about those rooms suddenly being clean? Nope! They acted like they were like that when they left, and they sure were not! But it was usually "Why didn’t you do this? Why did you forget to do that? You missed that!" ... "Thanks, Aleecia!" That's all I wanted.
Example #3... doing what I'm told. When I was younger, I always had the problem of my parents telling me to do something, and I'd be like yeah, yeah, I’ll do it later, and I ended up forgetting about it. Then I'd get into trouble. So once I got into high school I tried to do everything they told me to when they told me to without complaining. Tonight for example! My dad told me to take out my trash. So, I did! As soon as I stepped foot back into my house, I got yelled at with everything I did wrong. The bad thing, I seriously didn’t know what I was being yelled at for! "Thank you for doing that, Aleecia!" That's all I wanted.
Example #4... graduation night! That was a big moment in my life. I got through my 3rd high school, and actually graduated #13? in my class. That was hard work to do when I had to keep switching school systems and the requirements to graduate. Not once did I complain. So finally graduation night rolls around, I graduate, and afterwards I had to get my actual diploma from the lady in this room in the building. And my parents of course told me to come meet them behind the bleachers afterwards. When I finally got to the bleachers after I got it... I got yelled at "because I took too long to get there" .... right in front of everyone there including my family that came to see me, I was being yelled at. "Congrats Aleecia, we are so proud of you" .... that’s all I wanted!
Is wanting that kind of stuff too much to ask for? Seriously. My parents make me out [like to grandparents and other relatives] that my sister and I are the worst kids in the world. And I always thought they had it easy. I never went out and smoked crack, drank alcohol, had sex, got pregnant, and other things some teenagers do. I was kid everyone called a chicken for doing none of that because I was worried about what my parents thought about what I did.
All I want is one compliment from my parents! Just one.
It's always "you could have done better!” , "you did that wrong!" , "you are such a horrible kid"
Example #1... my grades! I've always gotten A's and B's through school. But not once did my parents tell me good job. I only got 3 B's in high school... one of which I actually earned in 8th grade! Algebra, Geometry, and Advanced Composition (college class). In my family I think a B is a sin and is the end of the world. Like in pre-calculus in college last semester I got a B. The rest of my grades were A's! First thing my mom said to me? "A B?????? Aleecia, you should have done better!" Oh, I'm sorry that I got a B the grade that is still considered above average. "Good Job, Aleecia!" That's all I wanted.
Example #2... cleaning? My parents always complain the house is a mess and we leave our stuff lying around. So, last year I started randomly cleaning up the kitchen, the living room, the bathrooms, the basement, and my room... and made them look REALLY nice. Did anyone ever say anything about those rooms suddenly being clean? Nope! They acted like they were like that when they left, and they sure were not! But it was usually "Why didn’t you do this? Why did you forget to do that? You missed that!" ... "Thanks, Aleecia!" That's all I wanted.
Example #3... doing what I'm told. When I was younger, I always had the problem of my parents telling me to do something, and I'd be like yeah, yeah, I’ll do it later, and I ended up forgetting about it. Then I'd get into trouble. So once I got into high school I tried to do everything they told me to when they told me to without complaining. Tonight for example! My dad told me to take out my trash. So, I did! As soon as I stepped foot back into my house, I got yelled at with everything I did wrong. The bad thing, I seriously didn’t know what I was being yelled at for! "Thank you for doing that, Aleecia!" That's all I wanted.
Example #4... graduation night! That was a big moment in my life. I got through my 3rd high school, and actually graduated #13? in my class. That was hard work to do when I had to keep switching school systems and the requirements to graduate. Not once did I complain. So finally graduation night rolls around, I graduate, and afterwards I had to get my actual diploma from the lady in this room in the building. And my parents of course told me to come meet them behind the bleachers afterwards. When I finally got to the bleachers after I got it... I got yelled at "because I took too long to get there" .... right in front of everyone there including my family that came to see me, I was being yelled at. "Congrats Aleecia, we are so proud of you" .... that’s all I wanted!
Is wanting that kind of stuff too much to ask for? Seriously. My parents make me out [like to grandparents and other relatives] that my sister and I are the worst kids in the world. And I always thought they had it easy. I never went out and smoked crack, drank alcohol, had sex, got pregnant, and other things some teenagers do. I was kid everyone called a chicken for doing none of that because I was worried about what my parents thought about what I did.
All I want is one compliment from my parents! Just one.
Monday, January 8
Huge pondering session
Yeah, so... I watched that movie "To Be Fat Like Me." AMAZING! It had such an amazing message behind it, and it was really... good! Even though, good really doesn't describe it.
At the end it said "The world will tell you who you are, until you decide to show it who you really are!" Pretty much saying, everyone is going to judge you and stereotype you and try to tell you who you are. But if you don't do anything about it, that's how it's going to be.
It's funny how whenever I watch a movie or listen to something I always get inspired to do something... but i never seem to keep up with that. It will last for maybe 2 days, and I'm back to where I was before I ever watched it.
But that quote made me think. *hmmm* The world has told me I was fat and worthless since, well forever! I always just blamed it on the fact that most my family is overweight and well, myself! So, I think it's about time I stop making up excuses, and finally show the world what I really can be.
Now this is a really weird blog coming from Aleecia. But I think for once... I am 100% serious about losing weight. Amy i think i might take your advice, but not right away... cuz I just have this... I don't know. When "fat" people go to the gym, or join exercise classes... they are looked at like "why the hell are they here???" so, maybe if i can lose some first... THEN look into some sort of aerobics class, or anything!
Yessssssssssssir. (weird way to end this...haha, but i do what i want)
At the end it said "The world will tell you who you are, until you decide to show it who you really are!" Pretty much saying, everyone is going to judge you and stereotype you and try to tell you who you are. But if you don't do anything about it, that's how it's going to be.
It's funny how whenever I watch a movie or listen to something I always get inspired to do something... but i never seem to keep up with that. It will last for maybe 2 days, and I'm back to where I was before I ever watched it.
But that quote made me think. *hmmm* The world has told me I was fat and worthless since, well forever! I always just blamed it on the fact that most my family is overweight and well, myself! So, I think it's about time I stop making up excuses, and finally show the world what I really can be.
Now this is a really weird blog coming from Aleecia. But I think for once... I am 100% serious about losing weight. Amy i think i might take your advice, but not right away... cuz I just have this... I don't know. When "fat" people go to the gym, or join exercise classes... they are looked at like "why the hell are they here???" so, maybe if i can lose some first... THEN look into some sort of aerobics class, or anything!
Yessssssssssssir. (weird way to end this...haha, but i do what i want)
Sunday, January 7
Cross new year's resolution off my check list...
There is this movie coming on Lifetime on Monday night at 8pm (9 pm for you east coast people! Amy..yeah i dunno, lol!) it's called "To Be Fat Like Me." I'm going to watch it!
It's about some girl who has always been skinny and athletic, i guess she puts on a "fat suit" and goes into the high school atmosphere and sees how much fat people get teased at and made fun of. And I guess her mom is fat, so she sees what her mom goes through in an everyday life.
Let's see... the being fat in high school thing really does suck! I hated it. People always acted like "wow, she's fat... she must have no feelings. Let's make fun of her, call her names, do something stupid and think we are funny. No way she will ever be hurt by that." News flash, just cuz someone is fat, doesn't mean they have NO feelings! GOSH! I seriously hate people.
I had the problem of guys thinking they were so funny, and walking up to me and being like "hey baby, you so sexy, wanna come back to my place tonight?" usually followed by uncontrollable laughing on the other side of the classroom or hallway of their friends. Oh, so because I'm not exactly skinny, you think you can make fun of me and pretend like you like me when really... you're an ass?
Of course the usual response when someone complains about being fat is... "well lose weight!" I can honestly say I've tried! Real hard.
It may be a little late... but my new years resolution... LOSE WEIGHT! And actually do it this time?
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Ok, so! On a happier note!
My friends and I all went bowling tonight. I had so much fun! Everyone that promised they would show up, did! :)
And of course I won both games we bowled! 110 and 97 i think. Haha, i didn't even try!
Group picture! Lol. We took this after a few people left... ashlie, her boyfriend jed, fallon, mark, brandi, and 2 of her friends left. So we had a partay going at one point!
But, we are cool to the max in that pic. Don't hate
This is getting long... THE END! :P
It's about some girl who has always been skinny and athletic, i guess she puts on a "fat suit" and goes into the high school atmosphere and sees how much fat people get teased at and made fun of. And I guess her mom is fat, so she sees what her mom goes through in an everyday life.
Let's see... the being fat in high school thing really does suck! I hated it. People always acted like "wow, she's fat... she must have no feelings. Let's make fun of her, call her names, do something stupid and think we are funny. No way she will ever be hurt by that." News flash, just cuz someone is fat, doesn't mean they have NO feelings! GOSH! I seriously hate people.
I had the problem of guys thinking they were so funny, and walking up to me and being like "hey baby, you so sexy, wanna come back to my place tonight?" usually followed by uncontrollable laughing on the other side of the classroom or hallway of their friends. Oh, so because I'm not exactly skinny, you think you can make fun of me and pretend like you like me when really... you're an ass?
Of course the usual response when someone complains about being fat is... "well lose weight!" I can honestly say I've tried! Real hard.
It may be a little late... but my new years resolution... LOSE WEIGHT! And actually do it this time?
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Ok, so! On a happier note!
My friends and I all went bowling tonight. I had so much fun! Everyone that promised they would show up, did! :)
And of course I won both games we bowled! 110 and 97 i think. Haha, i didn't even try!
Group picture! Lol. We took this after a few people left... ashlie, her boyfriend jed, fallon, mark, brandi, and 2 of her friends left. So we had a partay going at one point!But, we are cool to the max in that pic. Don't hate
This is getting long... THE END! :P
Wednesday, January 3
Stylish... facial hair?
I have a story to tell today from work. I work for hallmark cards, in case you didn't know? Mostly putting away cards and straightening them so they look nice.
So, today I was minding my own business and putting away 2 boxes of cards we got in. I was looking down not paying attention to anything really. Next thing I know I hear "Excuse me ma'am."
Ok, maybe not SO dramatically huge like that. But the ends of his mustache were curled like that! Full 360 degree circle! "Excuse me ma'am, do you have change of address cards?" How in the hell are you supposed to keep a straight face when you see THAT?!?!
Well, I'm not sure how I did it, but I managed to show him the cards and not laugh at all. Until he left the aisle, of course! Then I just had to bust up laughing, because that's just WEIRD! How do you get it to stay curled? Or does it just do it? Gosh!
And that's just one of the many weird things that happen to me at that job! Lol.
If anyone with a curly mustache was offended while reading this blog, I'm terribly sorry!
So, today I was minding my own business and putting away 2 boxes of cards we got in. I was looking down not paying attention to anything really. Next thing I know I hear "Excuse me ma'am."
Naturally, I look up. And what do i see? An older gentleman with a mustache. No big deal right? His mustache looked like...
Ok, maybe not SO dramatically huge like that. But the ends of his mustache were curled like that! Full 360 degree circle! "Excuse me ma'am, do you have change of address cards?" How in the hell are you supposed to keep a straight face when you see THAT?!?!Well, I'm not sure how I did it, but I managed to show him the cards and not laugh at all. Until he left the aisle, of course! Then I just had to bust up laughing, because that's just WEIRD! How do you get it to stay curled? Or does it just do it? Gosh!
And that's just one of the many weird things that happen to me at that job! Lol.
If anyone with a curly mustache was offended while reading this blog, I'm terribly sorry!
Hate is a strong word...
I think I have found the 2 things in life that I HATE the most!
- People with excuses. Especially my friends. Like I mentioned in my last blog I invited friends over for new years eve and well, we aren't going to talk about them making up damn excuses! I invited a whole bunch of them to go bowling this weekend and a bunch of them said "OK. I'll be there!" We'll see who actually shows up. I bet the normal 3... Ashlie, Kayla, Brianna. Unless Ashlie makes another excuse!
- People with opinions. Everyone has them, and is entitled to! I'm not saying you can't have one. Just don't stick it in places it doesnt belong! Or, have stuff to back up your argument. It drives me insane to go to youtube, and search panic! at the disco, and 99% of the comments are "oh my gawd!!11!! these guys suck" why did you search them if you hate them? Jeez. :] Opinions are better kept to yourself.
Ok. So I lied. I hate 3 things in this world... I hate mushrooms too ;]
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